i’m in the middle of my day, and i look at my phone and see a missed call. from what number? it looks familiar mostly because it begins with my ex’s area code.
and then all the breath goes out of my chest, my heart sinks into my stomach and i feel like i’m going to throw up.
i hate that he has this power over me. i don’t even know if it was him, i erased his number long ago. but just that hint, just that forced memory has ruined my day. i feel scared and helpless and i’m nervous about being anywhere alone.
all i want to do is hide in my room and go to sleep.
i’ll face the world again tomorrow.
You let me know if you need company. Anytime.